Jezreel's Blog

A couple of weeks ago, while BFF and I were walking to the library, I had a glimpse of a guy sitting on a nearby bench. He was wearing black tshirt and glasses. I thought he looked like chuchu so I looked again and our eyes met. I looked away that instant and dared not to look back. While in the library, I couldn’t stop thinking about the guy I saw. He look so much like chuchu, except that, the glasses made it hard for me to confirm. But chuchu do wear glasses… sometimes. I didn’t tell BFF about this, but I decided to look at the guy again when we pass by the bench; going from library to parking lot. I saw the guy wearing black tshirt and glasses again. But he look totaly different now. He looked nothing like chuchu at all. So I realized, maybe I was just thinking about chuchu too much, that I see his face on other people. I decided not to tell anyone about my mistaking identity.

Yesterday after school, while BFF and I were walking to the parking lot, my heart started beating so fast that I can hear the “thump! thump! thump!” and my knees slightly weakend as I look closely to the face of the guy that’s walking towards us. He was looking down, and he’s wearing glasses, so I couldn’t really see his face. But as we get closer and closer, the faster my heart beat. “THUMP! THUMP! THUMP!” I can hear it. I was trying my hardest to see through those glasses. “THUMP! THUMP! THUMP!” When we were  about 3 feet apart, the guy lifted up his head and looked at me. Our eyes met. S-L-O-W-M-O-T-I-O-N.  HE’S THE GUY I SAW TWO WEEKS AGO! I wasn’t hallucinating or just thinking about chuchu too much! this guy is REAL! He look so MUCH like chuchu! We didn’t stop walking… we passed each other. I dared not to look back, because I’m afraid that he might have looked back at me and I don’t want to meet his eyes again. OH! the RUSH in my NERVES! I grabbed BFF in the arm and told her, “The guy that we just passed by… did you see him?” she said “no” then I said, “OMG. He look so much like chuchu. Maybe it’s him.” then I told her about what happened two weeks ago. Now the question is; how come when we came out of the library and I looked at the guy from the bench again, he looked different…nothing like chuchu at all. My answer is this: Maybe, while BFF and I were still in the library, the chuchu copy must have left and another guy who happened to also be wearing black shirt and glasses took his seat. So, when I came back to see him again, it was already a different guy, and so I thought I just mistook him to look like chuchu the first time I saw him. When actually, the real chuchu copy already left. OMG. Am I making sense? Well anyway, I kept on telling BFF that the guy is real. I’m sure because I just saw him again. He look exactly just like chuchu. What if it really is him?

So BFF and I decided to wait for him today. Since I always see him on the same hallway, we waited there. I was really hoping that I’ll see him again. And to confirm once and for all if he really is chuchu or if he’s only a look-a-like. We waited, and waited. He never came. I was still very hopeful that he’ll come. But we didn’t have enough time to wait any longer. I got so depressed! I felt MISERABLE! I began to pay less attention on things. Even BFF noticed that I wasn’t acting right. It was HORRIBLE!!! I wanted to run out and just yell “YOU ARROGANT JERK!!! SHOW YOURSELF TO ME!!!” It was really BAD. I had several mixed emotions. I felt… rejected. WOW.-_- So, this is what love is.