For me, finding love has always been an option. I don’t need a man’s love since I’m already filled with love from family and friends. Although I never shut my heart for romance, I’ve never let anyone in, either. And though some have tried to serenade my heart, I’ve always been avoidant. I’ve always, always thought that I’m strong. I can face anything and get trough everything. I am tough and nothing, except God, can make me fall on my knees. But when I met you, I fell behind your shadows and I saw how vulnerable and weak I am. I feel so small. I didn’t like it… and I hated you. I hated you so much that I nearly cursed you. I wanted to get away from you, so I started ignoring you. But you always come to me and make me smile. I was happy… but I was also in denial. I didn’t want to be happy… I can’t be happy, because I was scared. I was scared that my hate will turn to love. But was it really hate that I first felt? Or was it love that I was trying to suppress? I was in war; battling my feelings for you. I was fighting for very long time, but now, I just want you to know that I surrender. I can’t win over a feeling so strong. Maybe I was in denial, and maybe I tried to push you away, but there is no denying that you overwhelmed me. Now I know that I’m not as strong and tough as I thought I was. Now I know that I am just but a girl. If one day you come to realize that we share the same feeling, please lend your shoulder to me. For I will cry my heart out. I will cry for all the times we were both blind and unaware. Unaware that love has been with us all along. And when that day comes, I will tell the world that my life is a fairytale..
